January 2011
My Dearest Ann.
Ohhh, it’s back. The ultimate rush. Starvation. Hunger. It’s my obsession. Sometimes life is better when you decide not to give a fuck. There’s the saying “Every path has it’s puddles.” But my path has a huge fucking river right smack in the middle of it. I don’t care if it hurts. I want to have control. The perfect body is what I’m reaching for....
You.
Nobody understands how much I miss you… I miss how much we used to talk & I miss all the things we used to do. I try not to admit to myself that I still feel this way. Nobody knows that I still wake up thinking of you each day. I still think of you and I really do miss you. I would give up everything I have to be everything we’re not…
Just Want To Be Loved.
Is that too much to ask for? Somebody who accepts me flaws and all? Of all the lies I’ve heard “I love you” was my favorite… I just can’t help but wonder what on Earth is wrong with me. But I know. I aim to high and set myself up for heartbreak. I’m not good enough. I know that. Everyone else knows that. I’m not the pretty girl. Never will be. But I want...
IWANTYOU... only you...
I lie awake every night with only one thing on my mind. you. How can I be falling this hard over someone like you? You, who doesn’t take my feelings and thoughts into consideration. I love you with all that I am… your smile, your eyes, you. Chasing you causes me to be short of breath and I know I’m out of my mind but it’s alright. Ever since I met you nobody else is worth...
